Friday, September 5th, 2003
|
|
11:22 pm - Guess who's back....
|
What's up trick daddys. If anyone reads this...HI!!!! I Haven't talked to most of the people that could possibly read this in a long time!!! Hi...again lol
What's going on in my life? Not much. I've really started to go to church a lot more and hung up my clubbing shoes *how dorky was that..lol* Boys....they are pretty much non existant in my life. Oh well.
The last guy I dated pretty much came out of the closet on one of our dates...so that was over pretty quickly. lol
I have to tell you how...
We were at my house watching a movie.....*side note...he is a male cheerleader, and one of the finest men you have ever seen in your life* and he says "Colin Ferrell is hot!" I look at him and shrug it off...I think Britney is hot, so why can't he think Colin is hot *side note: did you see Brit kiss Madonna? wtf?* anyways..he says.."Did you see him in Phone Booth?" I say.."yes" he says..."When he had that Rasberry Sorbet shirt on with that black suit..damn Oh my god he looked good!!!" I looked at him and said..."You are soooo gay" He broke down and said.."Maybe I am" LMAO. I wanted to say.."GO BACK IN THE CLOSET!!!" Needless to say..we haven't talked to eachother since. lol
See ya later
Ashley
|
|
(2 comments | comment on this)
|
|
Friday, March 7th, 2003
|
|
10:12 pm - OMG..It's been forever!!!
|
I really forgot about this thing! lol. So....my life.
The guy I talked about last time....well he's like the rest. After one thing..but you know what's sad? I actually gave it to him.
After dating Matt for 3 weeks I gave in to the pressure and I had sex with him. Do you know how many times I've talked to him since? maybe 3 and that was 2 months ago! I felt like such a slut..I even cried afterwards on the way home! Why do I do that? I was dating 3 guys when I did it, so I cut ties with all of them. I've ended the dating ring. No more men on the rotation. I've cleaned them all out. Even deleted some numbers from the address book!
My new job is going great. I miss being on the internet so much to talk to all of you guys!
well talk to you guys later!! Holla back at me!
|
|
(1 comment | comment on this)
|
|
Wednesday, January 15th, 2003
|
|
10:59 am - Howdy hos...
|
Dude..I forget that I have this thing half of the time. lol
Okay here is the drama that be going down in my life.
1. I saw Mike Sunday night..and boy did it hurt. I cried last night, cause I miss him. I was thinking of things we used to talk about, and how he used to say I had "Wandering eyes". Because when you talk to me..my eyes wander...from eye to eye to nose to the lips. He loved that about me. GOD I MISS HIM!! Why? I know that he's a loser, I know I can do better!! Why?!?
2. Ashley is pregnant....with my exs baby. Well actually it's between 2 people. Either Tony (the guy that i used to date a few months ago) or her current boyfriend...which is a total loser. :( HOw pissed should I be about this? I didn't love or care for Tony..I didn't date him long, but it still pisses me off. Do you want to be me so badly? Do you want everything I have? Get your own life, your own family, and your own Identity.
3. I met a new guy....he's absolutly awesome, but how long till he shows his true colors? He's tall..so tall...6'3 tall. He's hot..so hot...soooo hot. He used ot play college footbal. He's smart, and funny. And he digs me lol.
Well holla back at me folks.....I'm bouncing.
Peace
|
|
(3 comments | comment on this)
|
|
Thursday, January 9th, 2003
|
|
10:25 am - Hey,
|
Long time no entries. :)
As some of you know..I will be starting a new job next week. Or actually I started it this week, but I'll be completely done with this one next week. I'm so happy to get outta the hell hole stress burden that I was in before. YAY! GO me!
They are pissing me off..even after I put in my 2 weeks notice.
I'm not going to see Tony tomorrow night...even though he'll only be 7 hours from me..couldn't find any friends to go wiht me.
Maybe I need more friends..haha.
No boys in the picture anymore. Which is not entirely a bad thing...do you think so?
well talk to ya later...
Peace out.
|
|
(2 comments | comment on this)
|
|
Monday, December 9th, 2002
|
|
3:22 pm - Long time no post..:)
|
But I'm here. How's the non existent readers that I have? lol
But this is my journal...so..I'm writing for myself anyways.
Okay..so this weekend was weird.
Friday night:
I took my ex boyfriend Mike's mother out. Weird huh? lol Well we went out to eat at Yesterdays. Ran into like a million of Jimmy's friends. wtf? THey were all nice to me and all. So that was cool. So anyways we see these guys..and she knows the older one, but he has this younger guy with him and I think he's hot. So we eat and then go to Jebs to listen to my brother's band. :) Well those guys were there! So Cindy and I danced every song..no joke. We had a blast. Me and Mike's mom!! What a hoot! Yes I said hoot. lol. Anyways..thecute guy danced with me crazy all night. It was fun. ANd I gave him my phone number. I usually don't do that, but he was cute. :)
When I was at the club, I saw the guy that hit Ashley. I wanted to kill him. I seriously wanted to murder him. Ashley and I aren't even really friends anymore, but he doesn't deserve to be out partying, when Ashley still suffers from what his prick ass did! Mother fucker! My brother begged me not to start anything, so I didn't. He's mother fucking lucky. I would have beaten the hell outta him..*Yeah, he's a bouncer and weighs like 300 lbs...*. lol
Saturday: I worked..nothing fun. Like 10 - 10 it sucked.
Sunday: I went shopping for X mas gifts.. Boy did I spend entirely toooo much money! Geez. But I'm almost done! YAY!!!
Well when I got home I crashed, I was tired after my busy weeekend. And then Andrew *guy from club* called. We talked for about an hour. :) But I was bitchy, I was half asleep. I'll call him tonight and apologize for being a bitch. lol
Talk to you guys later.
Kristen, if you read this, I miss ya. :( Luv ya!
|
|
(3 comments | comment on this)
|
|
Monday, November 18th, 2002
|
|
10:28 am - Hey folks..
|
I'm not even sure if anyone reads this thing anymore..LMAO
I had a strange strange weekend. We had a benefit dance for Rod (my brother's bass player that passed away) We raised $6,000.00. Isn't that amazing!! That was truly amazing. I was so happy. Well I was um.....drunk.LMAO. I asked my brother's friend to dance. He is 38 years old, I've known him since I was like 12...I used to baby sit his freaking kids. Well...i think of him like another brother. Well...he cops a feel when we are dancing. Then another guy does that..and then it was an emotional night...well I cry. My brother and dad find out why I was crying the next day. Well..that's all it took. They are ready to beat the hell outta of him. I feel bad, but ti wasn't my fault. i didn't ask to be molested!!!
I'm seriously about to quit my job. I just have to find another one.:(
|
|
(2 comments | comment on this)
|
|
Friday, November 15th, 2002
|
|
2:47 pm - I'm so sick and tired...
|
Of the Harry Potter bullshit! If I see that dumbass looking punk, I'll throw soemthing at him. STUPID STUPID STUPID MOVIE!! I hate it I hate it I hate it Hate it. LMAO
I hate the people that follow it. Not the kids, they know no better, the adults that wait in line. They say they do it for their kids, bullshit!!!!! LMAO
|
|
(comment on this)
|
|
Monday, November 11th, 2002
|
|
8:49 am - Been a long time...
|
Since my dumbass has posted. WTF? AM I smoking crack? yeah prolly so. LMAO.
So what's new in the world of Ash....KRISTEN!!!! I got on a million catrillion jillion times this weekend..hoping like hell to get a glimpse of ya. Dammit to fucking hell..yous never were on. Doo Fucking Do!! LMAO. I miss you like Crazy girlie!!
Can I express my love for Justin Timberlake enough? DEAR FREAKING GOSH!! Did you see Launch? OMG!! Break me off of piece of that! I wanted to jump through the TV and rape him! It shouldn't be legal to be that damn fine! Grrrrrrr....I want him. :)
I saw 8 mile last night.....Okay..Em did a good job..WAy to go future babies daddy! But Brittany Murphy needs to go back to the fucking trailor park. That was some nasty shit! And how the hell is Taryn Manning going to go from Crossroads to 8 mile...doesn't fly. All I kept thinking was..um...she's Britney's friend. LMAO. When Brittany Murphey's character licked her hand to jack him off..I nearly threw up. That's what you call ghetto lube..LMAO. Then EM with his lil sister...all together now....awwwwwwwww! He's such a lil cutie. I'd love to date him. I know that sounds wierd, because everyone thinks he beats his girls. But I don't think so..I think it's an act. And basically Kim's a bitch..she prolly deserves it if she gets it. I shouldn't have said that. I'd make him happy....I bet he's really sweet when he's not in front of a camera or a mic. LMAO.
|
|
(comment on this)
|
|
Monday, November 4th, 2002
|
|
2:33 pm - hey ho's,
|
What's going on? LMAO I'm a nerd
I feel like major shit diggity today..:( I sure do. I felt so bad yesterday that I didn't even get out of bed. Made myself get up this morning..Even though I was an hour late. :( I'm totally dead. Well I decided I'd go home at 12:00, another girl beat me to it! So there went my backup. So I'm stuck here to rot until 5:00. I'm supposed to work at zales tongiht too, but I believe I'll call in sick for that. :(
I don't have ABC, but I'm going to try desperately to get my rabbit ears to pick it up. :( I have to watch Ju Ju tonight. :(
My weekend sucked ass..worked worked and then got sick. :( I was supposed to go out after work Sat night, but all of my friends backed out. :( WTF? Losers! LMAO, it ended up being okay..cause I started to get sick. :(
|
|
(comment on this)
|
|
Thursday, October 31st, 2002
|
|
9:22 am - Dear goodness..I'm cold...
|
OH yes..I am Britney Spears today. Btw..HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!
Yep..I'm Britney..I have my plaid skirt on...white button up shirt...knee highs and piggy tails with little fuzzy things tied up in them ;)
I did the unthinkable last night..and I failed.
I asked Kyle out on a date. HE TURNED MY ASS DOWN! WTF? Guys don't turn me down...i turn them down!!
Me: So...what are you doing this weekend?
Kyle: Well I think I'm going to the game Saturday..what about you?
Me: Well I have to work, but I was wondering if you wanted to go with me to listen to my brother's band Saturday night.
Kyle: Yeah maybe, it depends on how drunk I am at that time. By 10:00 I might not be able to walk.
Me: yeah, well we can do something some other time. It's not big deal
Kyle: It's not that I don't want to go out with you..it's just that I'm broke.
Okay....that pissed me off. Be a man and say..I'm not interested! Dear God..I'm a big girl..I can handle it!
So I guess that was over, before it even started too. I'm done with men. How many times have I said that? LMAO
|
|
(4 comments | comment on this)
|
|
Wednesday, October 30th, 2002
|
|
9:08 am - I'm living a hectic life!
|
I'm so tired too. Here's my weekly schedule:
Monday: 8-5 Work
5:30-9:30 work
Tuesday: 8-5 Work
6-9 school
Wednesday: 8-5 Work
5:30-9:30 work
Thursday: 8-5 Work
6-9 school
Friday: 8-5 work
5:30-9:30 work
Saturday: it ranges...sometimes 9-6 or sometimes 1-8 or sometines 3:00 -9:30. Just depends. :(
Sunday: so far I'm off on those days!
Friday night Tony and I had our knock out drag out. And before it's even started that relationship was flushed down the drain. Doesn't know if he can be nice to me? WTF. I said "FUCK OFF!!". And meant it. I told him straight up.."You ain't as hot as you think you are....You are lucky to get someone like me..so step off your fucking high horse and recognize!" LMAO.
Sunday I went to my friend Tara's play..and let me tell you she rocked hard. It was Steel Magnolias. She played SHelby (Julia Roberts). SHe was awesome. :)
Then we went to Kyle's house :Insert giggles: Yes...it was nice. I'm so in love. LMAO. He still is not making any moves! WTF? Do I need to like write it on a freaking wall for your ass? I REALLY REALLY LIKE YOU! Maybe he's just not interested. Maybe he just really wants to be my friend. Maybe I need to ask him out?
I did sort of ask him out...I asked him to go with me Thursday night to a Halloween party at a club. He was like when? I was like Halloween night ;) quick one isn't he? LMAO. I was like I'm going as Britney Spears..you should go as Justin..he said I quote..."I'd rather be shot in the head!" grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. I told him I'd even buy him a fro. LMAO.
So what do you think I should do about Kyle?
|
|
(comment on this)
|
|
|
9:06 am - What personality disorder are you?
|
|
|
Friday, October 25th, 2002
|
|
10:26 am - Which *NSYNC Tour are you?
|
|
|
Thursday, October 24th, 2002
|
|
12:01 pm - I HATE FUCKING MEN!!!
|
|
OH yes I do. I'm so done with Tony. That's for damn sure. You guys know that survey that i sent to you...that none of you sent back ;) He sent it back to me..with some of the rudest and assholic things in the world! I emailed him back with a nice litte message that can be summed up in a few words..GO TO FUCKING HELL!
|
|
(2 comments | comment on this)
|
|
|
8:48 am - Which sign of affection are you?
|
|
|
|
8:38 am - hmmmm....
|
|
Where the dog diggity is Kristen? I haven't seen or heard from her in ages!! I misses her. :( I even emailed her..and she still hasn't replied. Kristen..are you alive out there?
|
|
(4 comments | comment on this)
|
|
Wednesday, October 23rd, 2002
|
|
10:52 am - Which Avril song are you?
|
|
|
|
10:37 am - This is my wonderful life....
|
My entire life I have always been my daddy's little girl. And though I know he still loves me. I may not be my daddy's little girl anymore. I think he seriously is disappointed in me. :( And I completely blame Ashley on this.
When I asked my dad if Ashley could move in with me a long time ago..he said no. I cried and begged my father to let her. I told him that she was a nice girl that had been handed a bad life. I couldn't let her suffer and I couldn't let her live on the streets. My dad said he was tired of bailing me out. But he said.."If you say she is of good character, then I believe you" I was wrong. She lied to me. Maybe this is the reason I hate her so much right now. She made me lie to my dad. I once again let him down. I love my daddy so much. And to be a disappointment to him, hurts worse than anything else. More than ever I realize right now....I have to make something of myself. I can't be a screw up for the rest of my life. I'm a good person..I just make poor choices. Everytime I do something that is not responsible I get caught. And i hate it. :(
I'm kind of having one of those days...weeks..months..years..when everything starts falling into perspective. I'm going to be successful. I'm bound and determined. That's why I need to leave men alone. I can't fall for another man that will only cause me trouble and pain. I need to be by myself.
For me to be truly successful in my eyes...I need to do two things.
1. Have an awesome job..where I gain respect from many people.
2. To be truly independent from my parents. Meaning ...not having to cry to them everytime I have a problem.
To do these things..I have to move. No one believes that I'm going to move away. I have to prove it to them I will. I will move..and I will make something of myself. I have do this for myself and to prove to the others that don't believe in me.
I love my family more than anything. And I know they love me. But none of them believe me when I say...I'm going to be successful. They just do not believe that I'll ever be more than what I am right now. And that hurts. I was not meant to live in a small town in the middle of BFE in ARkansas. I was not meant to be a divorced secretary. There is a bigger plan for me out there..and I'm bound and determined to find it!
I'm done preaching.
|
|
(4 comments | comment on this)
|
|
Tuesday, October 22nd, 2002
|
|
4:49 pm - Think for a moment...
|
Sit back and relax. Think about Justin Timberlake..and take a moment to take in all his beauty!
Okay..now...a cold shower is needed! LMAO
That fucking seventeen mag. should be illegal!!! Oh dear god..I want to rape him!
|
|
(comment on this)
|
|
Monday, October 21st, 2002
|
|
10:44 am - My husband .....
|
Okay this is a funny story...
I used to work at a mental health place. :) Anyways, Friday I was in Wal mart..doing my thang. I hear. "AShley..Ashley..hey wait up" I'm like oh great..so I turned around and there was an old client of mine. He's standing there in his bright green and orange jams (If you are from the 80's you know what I'm talking about). Well he looks hella snazzy. :lol
Wacko: You remember me?
Me: Yeah (Wacko) how are you?
Wacko: I'm great. You look great Mrs. Ashley. You look absolutely hott!!
Me: um thanks.
Wacko: Give me a hug.
Me: Okay..(Wacko) you look like you have lost some weight.
Wacko: Yeah I'm dying of that Hepatitis
Me: Oh really..(The whole time thinking...eww gross he just hugged me!!)
Wacko: Did you ever get married?
Me: Um yeah...and then divorced.
Wacko: What was his name? Justin Timberlake right? (I swear he was completely serious :lol)
Me: Yeah that's him. ;)
Wacko: He was in a band right? *NSYNC?
Me: Yep ...you got it. (The whole time holding in every bit of laughter)
Wacko: I could tell he really loved you. He will realize what he lost. Because you are hot.
Me: You know you are right.
Needless to say the people around us in Wal Mart were looking at me like I was the crazy one. But it was pretty funny :lol
|
|
(comment on this)
|
|
![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small}
crackattack's journal
